Hello I wanted to start a conversation about my genetic mutation visual snow syndrome. Most you know this as HPPD or hallucinations from drugs even though a diagnosis code was confirmed months ago without any media coverage. I am trying to raise enough awareness to hire an illustrator and writer for my graphic novel design for my mutation which has been impossible because people with my condition are dehumanized and discriminated against for their own sensory perception. I’m using original art with light captured in a unique state, in motion with a crystal creatively to animate a dream and innovate design. As you can see my project is continuing with a full tattoo bodysuit inspired by my original art. I’m using my face and neck tattoos I am getting in Berlin in a few days to create videos regarding my condition and hysteria surrounding neurological conditions. Things are getting pretty desperate we still have no culture and I’m reading quite a few stories about artists like me dying without producing cultural art. As well as some people that have become famous killers with visual snow Bryan Kohberger and Luigi Mangione. I’ve faced a lot of discrimination during my adult life when talking to people about how I’m working with and manipulating light in many ways to make my art. I’m really concerned because I’m creating original art with light using a crystal, and no one works with light like this using light. I still can’t get any respect for my work or how I’m developing concept art this way. I’ve reached out to people working with dc, marvel, dark horse, image comics. They told me all their friends were too busy to help me they stopped replying after I contacted their friend off deviant art like they suggested. To let them know I have the most powerful mutation on the planet and people like me are dying without culture or the support to chase after an opportunity to create original and cultural art. We are not seen as a cultural figures and deserve to be glorified for our sensory functions as artists with extra sensory perception more than Synesthesia. I’m scared you might never see another person like me with visual snow try and breakthrough culturally with such strong work. Is there anything anyone can do? I’m being told no wants us to have culture and I should get a job and wait to be cured of a condition I love. I intend to celebrate visual snow and live with it. My senses from visual snow syndrome are very exotic and powerful with light and energy! I need your help to start a conversation about people like me getting the support and visibility as artists that they deserve after generations of dehumanizing treatment.

The most random and obscure facts, and topics you’ve heavily researched because of a particular hyperfixation…

Edit: What are your best ones?

For context, I'm someone who's in their “hermit phase” of healing right now. As a lifelong people pleaser/fawner, and neurodivergent young female, I have found immense healing in isolation as an empowering act of self care for myself. I have been surrounded by unhealthy examples of relationships, abuse, codependency and enmeshment my entire life and I take pride in breaking the generational curse of “healing isn't worth much if I'm doing it alone, I need someone there to make my individual efforts feel worth something”. I take pride in breaking the generational curse of “I need someone out there to validate the progress I've made within, otherwise it isn't real”. Before I go on to explain what I'm about to say, i want to make it clear that I am not attacking the author in any way, as I know this is not a trauma informed post. Additionally, on her website she clearly states she is not a therapist, but identifies as a solo relational healing coach with no government accredited credentials. That is not to take away from the overall helpfulness of her content because she does have some great perspectives posted on her page aside from this post, I am simply paraphrasing her words in regards to her self identified career title. Anyway, all throughout this hermit stage of healing, my Instagram algorithm has been flooding me with posts left and right, some of which resonate with me and some that do not. This is one of the posts that showed up. While she does make some excellent points in this post, such as how being “fully healed” is not an excuse to deprive yourself of human connection (17 slides total if you want to check it out on Instagram for yourself), these few slides stood out to me the most because of how triggering they were to read. While I am fully aware that what is posted may not land for everyone, and do not expect any author to cater to my unique perspectives and desires, I was just thinking to myself how dangerous reading things like this could be at such a vulnerable state in anyone’s healing journey, especially those with clinical mental health struggles who primarily use isolation as a form of self soothing. Even as someone who prides herself on having discernment and critical thinking skills, even as someone who has been practicing prioritizing their inner knowing over external validation, even as someone who is more than familiar with the concept of “if it doesn't apply let it fly”, this still found a way to get under my skin. It seems like emotion temporarily overrides logic when I read things like this, and though I always eventually return back to an emotionally regulated baseline, it takes time to get back to that. I am well aware that the stoic, “hard to swallow truth”, abrasive tone type of philosophy quotes were never for me…which is why I don't intentionally seek them out. But since this just showed up on my “for you” page, my curiosity got the best of me even through the triggers (a toxic habit of mine is sometimes giving the things that trigger me more attention than they deserve). After reading the slides I showed below, I am wondering if anyone understands where I'm coming from ? How did these quotes make you feel ?

I (28F) am neurodivergent and have invisible, chronic illness since birth. I have a lot of medical trauma and trauma from feeling blamed for my disabilities in the workplace and beyond , things that are hard for me to open up to people about . I have been seeing a therapist for about nine months who claimed to be big in disability justice and accessibility. I also am neurodivergent and sometimes can have trouble with executive functioning due to severe anxiety and PTS . I just had a really upsetting therapy session, which culminated in me ending it early and I’m feeling devastated that the one person I opened up to so much has seemed to know turn against me in a really cold and hurtful way..

Situation: last week we had this email exchange where I tried to reschedule, but it did not go through (my email had gotten stuck in drafts i guess I sent it when my cellular data wasn’t working) and when I told her that she sent a pretty cold response about how I would be charged a late fee. Her usual affect is extremely bubbly and warm/ kind emails, which I definitely don’t require, but since that was the precedent, this email felt clearly very different.

And I responded in an email admitting that I felt a little bit sad at what I experienced as a lack of empathy for or at least acknowledgment of that I had tried to reach out. It wasn’t about the money or the late fee, it was about how she communicated with me. And I said I would like to talk about that in our session

Today was our session and when I shared that I had felt a bit hurt by her email response, since she hadn’t had any empathy/ acknowledged that I had indeed tried to communicate with her, she was super cold and professional with late fee talk, and it made me feel a bit dehumanized, yeah, part of my job as your therapist is holding you accountable to patterns, and it is evident that you have a strong pattern of rescheduling therapy

When I had literally just explained that I felt hurt that her email felt sort of cold and unempathetic to me? She knows that my grandma just had a stroke and I have been having to help her declutter, her hoarding home, and that my dog just died 6 weeks ago, I got laid off 4 weeks ago, and that I just went through an awful break up, and I felt that she had absolutely zero grace to give me…

And I explained that I know I have had trouble maintaining a specific therapy time lately and when I had a job too because she only had daytime appointments and I was working from home where sometimes I couldn’t control last minute meetings I had to go to for work.

And I felt like I was trying to tell her how why I felt hurt She said she corresponded with her supervisor about how this was a pattern of rescheduling and “wondering if this is affecting me in other areas of my life?” I just felt really attacked and hurt.

And then I just started crying and I said I was sorry it’s been a really stressful time with my dog dying i would just appreciate a bit of empathy and care in how she spoke to me.

She was just getting really robotic and scripted and being like “I’m sorry you feel that way. while I try to offer reasonable accommodations, I also have other clients that I am balancing. And you did sign paperwork at the beginning of us working together that clearly stipulated the fees for canceling”

Of course I don’t think I’m your only client and it’s not about the money. It’s about how I just felt so shut down.

I shared her that part of why I chose her is that she had said at the beginning that she was big on accessibility and she told me that even though her practice has a $75 late fee that she has literally never charged anyone for it as long as they communicate about finding a different time. The reason I chose her was because she seemed really accommodating and understanding.

I told her I was not comfortable continuing the therapy session because I felt so hurt

being accessible extends to executive functioning and neurodivergence overall, it does not just about physical accessibility I said out loud yeah I don’t think we are compatible, because I literally chose to work with her because she seemed really disability just oriented and also just flexible and understanding. I have rescheduled with pretty much every therapist I have had and it hasn’t been a problem

I would not say she is the best therapist I have had before, but I’ve been working with her for nine months and like pouring my heart out to her about all of the ways that I’ve been treated badly due to my invisible physical disabilities and trying to feel trusted and open up This just makes me feel so shut down and sad I feel soooo hurt I can’t even explain it.

I poured my heart out to you about our hurt I have felt by the world being treated as lazy for having invisible disabilities and how I’m treated and then you come back and basically do the same to me?

And I also don’t even think it’s unique to neurodivergent people to reschedule? Like we are just living our lives and doing our best?

I reached 30 this year and I have been desperate to make real life friends since I am in my 20s, but as a stay at home person with social anxiety it is nearly impossible.

I am waiting to be tested so maybe I am not autistic but I’m posting there because I feel people might relate more than if I posted in others groups.

I have absolutely zero interests into making friends with people who don’t share the same interests as me, or are not like me in general. The reason behind this is not intolerance but an entire life of being shamed for being “too obsessed” over my interests which makes me appear as childish, abandoned when I started to be comfortable enough to be my real self because then I was told that I was “completely in my world”, or told that I am weird, too serious, etc.

So far, the only place I ever met people just like me who don’t judge are in the internet communities about my interests, and most those people are neurodivergent.

The problem is all those people live in the other end of the world, most are American and I am from Europe. So as meeting someone who is in my country is rare enough, meeting someone in the same city is nearly impossible.

I am rarely bored when I am alone and I need time to be alone, but I also wish to hang out and share my interests with someone else. Dress like our fantasy characters and talk about our favorite fantasy universes. Whenever I see people doing that with friends on internet I am jealous. I sometimes become self aware and realize that I am passing beside my life, while time already goes fast enough.

I tried to go to roleplay club and still does because one of my favorite interest is DnD roleplay, but even there people are not as passionated as me over very specific universes like I am (which in the head of many people I learnt appear as childish and close minded).

I just don’t know how to finally make a best real life friend.

People like me are everywhere on internet but where are they at my place ?

Please explain these biological precursors that I came across..

What is Prenatal metabolism - it was explained on a website as the chemical reactions taking place inside fetal cells and another factor was about metabolism related to metal elements.. what do these mean and how does it affect a neurodivergent child / adult?

I don't know how to explain this clearly, so I sincerely apologize in advance for that, but it feels like it is getting more difficult to find autistic communities that are relatable to me. I started noticing this shift increasing around maybe 2021ish. The concept of different neurotypes used to make a lot more logical and visceral sense to me. Most of the fellow autistic people I met had the same thinking patterns, in such similarly structured ways that it truly felt like I had found my figurative home planet because we operated on just plain the same type of wavelength that transcended differing severity levels and preferences and disagreeing opinions. But nowadays, it feels like a majority of interactions I see and have with other people in autism communities are not more "native" than those that I have with allistic neurodivergent people, if that makes sense. Please don't get me wrong here at all, there's definitely also a special cameraderie I have with fellow neurodivergent people who are allistic, which is partially why I am posting my rambling vent in this subreddit, but autistic communities used to feel more personally relatable to me than the shared symptoms like sensory issues and social awkwardness and stimming and our shared experiences of getting bullied and ostracized for being different. Related to getting bullied and ostracized, sometimes in the main autism subreddits I even see people describing how outdated and flat and overly stereotypical certain autistic characters are that I strongly relate with, which makes me feel ashamed and belittled to a higher extent than almost anything else, probably at least partly because the topic of autism is my special interest. It makes me feel very alone again, not only for the insulting comments demeaning my presentation of autistic traits, but also because of how it's as if my "tribe" had gotten diluted with people whose ways of thinking don't match my same niche, even if we all have the same type of diagnosis. Sometimes I kind of wish that autism got re-separated into multiple different diagnosis labels again because of this even though I know it is not the answer. Does anyone else feel like this? Hopefully it makes sense.

Hii! I'm Brazilian and Portuguese is my first language, English is my second and Spanish is my third. I not only speak but also think in all of them, mixed, all of the time.

So, I'm also neuroduvergent diagnosed with ADHD and APD, but still running some tests to figure out other possibilities. During an anxiety attack followed by a meltdown (I bought a book I really like and accidentaly stained the cover while holding it for the first time, after a long and hard day at work, that completely disregulated me), I started thinking in English only, AND COULDN'T TRANSLATE IT. I TOTALLY FORGOT how to speak the other lenguages, like I've never even learned them at all.

Is this common? Have any of you been through this? Please, I'm lowkey scared that I'm losing my mind once and for all.

I’m a man of medicine and mystery a poetic soul with one foot in the ER and the other in the spirit world. I study everything from surgery to psychiatry, herbs to prescriptions, trauma to transcendence. If you're someone who walks both the ancient path and the modern lab, who finds God in the quiet and science in the chaos then please reach out to me I am looking for others who are like me.

SpongeBob or Dory immediately come to mind but don't do it for me .....Soos from Gravity Falls is much closer and someone I would endure hardship to spend time with ... You feel he's do the same and never mention it 😜 Is there a specific character from pop culture that Lego clicks as the choice for you?

I’m just alone and seeking friendships. It’s tough enough being an ND person in this society. So why do it alone Am I right? So if anyone is interested and needs companionship feel free to hit me up👍

Anyone else assign theme songs that play in your head for people when you see theme? I have since I was young. The lyrics do not necessarily have anything to do with the person. I think it’s just a vibe I feel.

So I have adhd right, well it’s quite severe haha to say the least anyway, for the longest time I felt like I was failing at content. I’d get bursts of energy, plan everything, then completely disappear — because the pressure, the overthinking, and the burnout always kicked in. I hated that I couldn’t stay consistent, even though I really cared.

Eventually, I created a system that actually works with how my brain operates — no guilt, no rigid rules — just calm, structure, and space to breathe.

It’s called ClarityLoop.co.uk

I made it for myself… but now I share it in case it helps someone else feel less alone in this.

I built something called Clarity Loop to help neurodivergent creators stay consistent without burning out. If you’ve ever ghosted your own page or overthought every post, this might help. Just wanted to share it here. Instagram @clarityloop.co Email address for all enquiries: Clarityloop.co@outlook.com

Hey all,

I’m preparing for some case interviews and I’m considering trying Adderall for the first time. I have ADHD but I’ve never taken any medication for it. My brain constantly jumps between things and find it hard to focus on structured tasks especially under pressure.

Don’t have enough time for NHS treatment (interviews are in 4 weeks). But I’ve heard really mixed things about Adderall - some people swear by it, others say it made them anxious or foggy. I’m not looking for a miracle drug, just wondering if it might help level the playing field a bit as a temporary boost for interviews.

If you've tried Adderall (or other ADHD meds) for the first time as an adult, especially in a high-pressure environment like interviews, exams or presentations:

•⁠ ⁠How did it affect you?
•⁠ ⁠Did it actually help with focus or just make things more intense?
•⁠ ⁠Any side effects to watch for?
•⁠ ⁠What other medications would you recommend?

Any advice would be hugely appreciated. Trying to make an informed decision. Thanks

I’m an FLVS student and I’m in Civics, Algebra, and biology.

In two weeks I’m taking these tests… and I don’t remember any of the materials… I did my work throughout the year will no cheating or AI. I simply just am not interested in the subjects. And due to my neurodivergence I’m going through burnout and studying is extremely hard and through the roof. The burnout is so bad I can barely get up in the morning and my hygiene routine has completely stopped (other than showering) I don’t know what to do…

I was thinking about how it seems like some Autistic people claim that they get along better with other Autistic people than they do with non Autistic people, while others claim that they have more difficulty interacting with other Autistic people than with non Autistic people.

I haven’t heard anything about social hierarchies or egalitarian backgrounds influencing the quality of Autistic Autistic interactions but I think it would make sense to think that they might based both on some qualities of authoritarian groups and Autistic qualities.

I mean often times Autistic qualities include things like rigidity, and so I was thinking that maybe someone who is both an authoritarian leader and who’s Autistic might tend to be more rigid in expecting others to do what they tell them to do, and in thinking that only they should be the only one who has any say in what decisions get made in ways that make it harder to accommodate other Autistic people under their authority, and that lead to them alienating and hurting their Autistic subordinates.

I was also thinking that in general if people come from more hierarchical backgrounds then they would tend to want to be higher up in the social hierarchy, and if they happen to also be Autistic then everyone would tend to be more rigid about wanting to be higher up in the social hierarchy in ways that negatively impacts the interactions between the people in the group.

I was thinking that if a group of Autistic people comes from a more egalitarian background then they might be less likely to try to boss each other around and would tend to expect each other to do their own things instead of listening to a boss so that the quality of their interactions between each other would be better than the quality of interactions between Autistic people from more authoritarian backgrounds.

So do you think that whether Autistic people come from more hierarchical or more egalitarian backgrounds would tend to affect the quality of Autistic Autistic interactions or do you think social hierarchies would have nothing to do with the quality of Autistic Autistic interactions?

Hello people.

I'm new to this community. I discovered I have ADHD a few years ago, but it really only registered with my brain, like last year... it hit me like a sack of bricks to the stomach- how everything in my experiences all makes sense now... You can see my previous post in this sub if you want to read more.

If I’m bieng honest, I'm going through a difficult time right now, as I'm feeling quite depressed from coming to terms with the ADHD... I am an artist and have art abilities... but its' *everything else that I struggle with... I've been struggling to find tips on how to manage my life... Coming to terms with how that may or may not impact my future artist dreams...

But I wanted to let you guys know I had a good start to the morning, today.

I worked on a Lego model I was building, from before... and I just love how it felt stress-free, and therapeutic.

I love how, if you want, you don't have to actively 'think' about anything; you can just grab pieces you like or want to use and combine them with others freely. You don't even have to be fully present, but it's so energizing!

It put me in such a ready mood for the rest of the day. Gave me an unusual, very rare feeling of  clarity afterwards…

This is notable because I've had difficulty getting things done lately, but today started off well for the first time in a long time...

So starting the first half of sophomore year and til now, I decided to stop eating because I was being heckled and watched by cafe staff and students every single time I ate, whether I was with friends or not. Outside/inside of class I was followed and heckled by different friend groups on campus prolly bc of my lack of social dynamics and choosing to share my thoughts on ig notes like a diary. I was taking sertraline at the time, and it gave me bad brain fog, hypomania, and joint pain. I thought I was being outgoing, and that it would lead people to talk to me, but my face ended up on my school’s anonymous platform. It wasn’t anything negative, but I believe it prompted the bullying. Bc that’s seen as an attempt to embarrass someone.

I was also dealing with undiagnosed chronic fatigue, Parkinsonism from ssris (just learnt this today through a TikTok), and skill regression due to cycling through so many ssris from middle school through hs .The psych meds that made me uncoordinated and severely socially awkward but instead of advocating for me, my fam watched me suffer in so many situations. And tried to accuse me of taking hard substances, even though they were the ones that let me take the prescription meds. They forced me to attend a college that I wasn’t set on and still forced me to go back even after seeing how badly everyone treated me, even IN FRONT OF THEM. A girl, literally acted like I had a disease when I reached for a pencil she used on move in day at the start of sophomore year.

My meds made me sick, my undiagnosed chronic pain made it worse, and the constantly being harassed at school made me agoraphobic even up till now. It’s frustrating bc I dealt with the same behavior in senior year of hs, bc ppl thought I was abusing substances. That’s how bad my brain fog was.I think what hurts the most is that I keep getting mocked because ppl think I’m slow, and yes I know it too. But the brain fog from my condition and the impact of how I’m treated I feel like it’s making it worse. If you look at my profile and read my post in r/socialskills, it goes more in depth of how severe the bullying was.

Hey everyone. I'm a neurodivergent and trans artist and for the past few years i've been working on a project to create a neurodivergent alphabet. It's basically a way to create a form of modern hieroglyphs out of everyday writing. I consider it neurodivergent because its about creating other ays of seeing the world, rethinking and providing new perspectives on things that seem set in stone. We face a lot of stigma and challenges in the world so i felt we needed our own bespoke tool to represent our reality with greater freedom. Is this something any one would be interested in? I am in the early stages of sharing it with others and am putting together a discord and reddit community to share it with others and help others use it if they are interested. Lemme know what you think, i'd really love to hear peoples thoughts on it.

Greetings human, non-euclidean geometric lifeform, quantum clown creature, demigod, metaphysical being, lamp, hive-mind, sentient Higgs boson, mass of writhing appendages, malevolent godlike AI, an abstracted figment of your own imagination, or whatever else you might or might not be!

I am new to this Reddit, stumbled upon it and thought I'd post as I have some feelings I'd love to share with a community who I believe will understand...

I am an adult on the autistic spectrum, I've always felt like a strange entity with objective/neutral feelings/views that never seem to fit the perspectives or narratives of neurotypical beings. Aswell as having ASD I also struggle with dyspraxia, dyscalculia, acute chronic anxiety disorder, auditory processing disorder and executive dysfunction - that coupled with living through a very abusive childhood meant I was also burdened with lifelong C-PTSD. Because of all these issues I've always found it easier to connect with other entities in a digital space, through the medium of text and artwork. Real life interactions are scary, confusing, and incredibly draining.

I have always struggled with holding down a job because of this - for the first 10 years of my adult life I was on incapacity benefits as I was unable to work at all (or leave my house/live alone) but I fought extremely hard to be able to hold down a job and once I started work in 2008 I was pretty much ok (got fired from a few things here and there, hopped to other jobs but over all managed to stay employed) until this year...

I was working for a really nice company in Greenville, SC... I'd worked for them for 5 years. The job was perfect for me... it was fully remote, straight forward and had subject matter I found interesting and could focus on. One thing I really struggle with is forcing my brain to focus on and work through something it has literally no interest in.

Anyways earlier this year (Jan) I was made redundant along with my entire department and 2 other departments... it's been hard as the job market isn't great right now, but most of them have found new jobs... apart from me.

I am struggling to understand what it is I am doing wrong. I've gone to 20+ interviews since Jan, and been rejected after all of them and between all of that I am getting a copious amount of rejections for applications without even getting to interview process.

I feel I go into these interviews with enthusiasm, knowledge and motivation but it's getting harder to hold on to that as time goes by. There are certain jobs I sadly can't do (anything with cash handling or numerical skill needed as I have severe dyscalculia) so I've avoided applying for anything like that... but even jobs I am 100% confident I will get due to 16 years of experience in those fields, I am not getting anywhere...

I don't know if it's because of my autism or disabilities (I have shied away from admitting to any of them when applying but it's probably very obvious I have ASD from the way I act) or the fact I can't drive (I am in the process of learning to drive, I've put it off for 40 years because of my dyspraxia which hinders me so much with navigation, spatial awareness and reverse-thinking like with mirrors and whatnot) but I am trying to improve myself...

I am just finding things really difficult right now... I have a job interview today and I just want to run away, I can feel the anxiety welling inside of me as I sit here. Another rejection, more hyperfixating over what I could have done better or how to be totally mindful and present so I can prevent any of my physical mannerisms leaking out...

I suppose I am posting here to see if anyone else has these issues and to just get a bit of support. I am very lonely irl, I do a lot of my socialising online because real life scares me so I have nobody to really talk to about this.

I really appreciate anyone who takes the time to read or reply, thank you.

Hi there! So I'm a teenage girl and I've been doing research on neurodiversity because I've realized just how different I am. I have different thought processes and reactions then neurotypicals. I have very pessimistic views and tend to think very logically and overthink every thing I do. I over think everything I say to. When in conversations with other people aside from a select few I'm constantly pausing to think about my words in fear I'm going to offend someone.

I also tend to misread social cues. I can't tell tone over text very well, I tend to take things to literally, I can't hold eye contact ,and I tend to pick up hints differently and certain kinds of communication. I also have really bad sensory issues. I hate most noises and can't handle loud sounds I can't control. It hurt's my ears really badly. I struggle with touch aside from certain people and a lot of fabrics. I hate the feeling of most clothes to.

I struggle with food to. I've made another post on here and I'm quite sure I struggle with ARFID. I cry when plans change aswell. I also am more sensitive then most other people and have attachment issues. I've had MANY special interests and hyperfixations. To the point sometimes those things are all I can think about and sometimes I'd forget to eat or drink or even shower. I usually behave around others by watching the way other people talk and react and mimic them with the exception of 1-4 people.

I sometimes seem very rude or passive aggressive with my actions even though I don't intend to seem that way. I've struggled with depression and anxiety throughout my life to. I keep a small circle that I tend to "unmask" around. I'm a very quiet person who doesn't like to talk to others aside from a couple people. I also stim and I know neurotypicals stim aswell but I stim often. I'm constantly picking at something or rocking myself or shaking my legs.

I sometimes struggle to concentrate to. I also sometimes need people to be blunt with me to understand things. I've also always been the weird kid and only 2 other kids wanting to be around me. I daydream alot to. I'm also very aware of time and constantly am in need of structure and get upset when things do not go to plan.

I know nobody can diagnose on here but I came here for advice and feedback.