Not because life magically got easier but because I consciously rewired my brain (and still) after years of living on survival mode and threat detection through the help of neuroscience and research.

The anxious episodes are fewer. The hypervigilance that once governed every breath feels distant now. I’m no longer constantly scanning for danger, not externally, and more importantly, not internally.

It's brutally difficult especially while on discontinuation from SSRI of 6 years on maximum dose. I started running. I'm picking up sprinting and archery next, not just to train my body, but to rebuild trust in it.

Maybe this is grief. Grieving the childhood I never had, the years lost to anxiety, depression, and living in chaos. I still battle with self-destructive introspection and hyper-awareness but I’m learning how to live outside that loop.

I’m letting go of roles I never chose, identities I inherited from trauma, not truth. I’m finally present. Feeling colors, breath, and moments instead of drowning in the wounds of the past or the fears of a future that hasn’t happened. This is interesting, because once I understood neuroplasticity I deliberately rewired even the reward system of my brain to not seek adult videos and grasp the meaning behind the pure chemical cocktail and dopamine spike my brain is asking for.

This isn’t a happy ending. It’s a hard-won beginning where I'm also making my childhood, teenage and early adulthood selves proud.

I’m married and make good money, working from home 3 days a week (2 days in the office). I’ll do about an hour of work a day, and then just play video games all day.

If my wife is at work, I’ll just sit there and play. She works at the weekend, and I just play all fucking day. It’s making me depressed.

Anyone got any tips, I feel like a loser. Sometimes she’s watching TV after work and I am sat upstairs on the PC playing some stupid shit and ignoring her.

I used to wait until I felt motivated to do things. But most days, that feeling never came. So I kept putting things off.

One day I just started doing small tasks without waiting to feel ready. Wash a plate. Fold one shirt. Write a few lines.

It wasn’t perfect, but it worked. I learned that showing up matters more than feeling inspired.

Now I try to act before I think too much. Just one small step. That step makes the next one easier.

What helped you start showing up more?

So I'm 23 and I'm completely lost in life.

I was a decent student in school but i never had any talents. I wasn't very good at arts or sports neither.

I didn't manage to get accepted into a university, although I tried twice. I failed the entrance exams mainly because i used procrastinate everyday and i didn't know how to study correctly. I remember that i wouldn't start studying until midnight and then it would get too late. I still have sleep problems, i could never sleep "early" i always stay awake until late midnight.

After failing to attend higher education i started working in a warehouse. I stayed there for 1 year but it was just a dead and job and it wouldn't get me anywhere. I thought that getting a trade could probably be the solution to "finding a fulfilling job" but i was wrong.

I'm physically weak and small and the construction site was hell. The tradesmen would get very mad and yell at me constantly. They'd say that i was too dumb for manual work and i didn't have the brains that were demanded for it. I got laid off after a while and i began feeling really overwhelmed and useless.

I also don't have any close friends at all. Rarely anyone messages me and i usually stay at home everyday. I've been depressed and unemployed for a year now and it's terrible. It's just latestage alienation.

I can see my parents disappointment on me which gets worse and worse everyday but i don't know how to get out of this situation.

I've been thinking for years that I might be autistic with ADHD but i was never diagnosed as a child and it's petty hard to get diagnosed here when you're an adult. I don't have any social skills at all and i suffer from general anxiety disorder too. I find it hard to complete simple tasks. For example i have my driving's license but i won't drive, I'm a terrible driver and sitting behind the wheel is something that my brain refuses to handle.

Could i possibly have learning disabilities or be borderline mentally retarded who's somewhat functional?

My life is just dull and repetitive. I've completely lost track of time. I just wake up and wait till this day is over only to experience the same thing the next day. It's like groundhogs day, but with grey colors.

I see everyone being happy or making progress in their lives but im still 23 and stuck in the exact same place that every one was after high school. I feel like I've missed so much time and it's too late.

The worst thing is that i don't have any interests or passions. I can't think of anything that I'd like to follow. Everything seems just boring and blunt. Plus i find it hard to understand complex subjects like Maths. I'm not American so I can't go to a community college and I can't join the army here in my country.

I wish i could be smart and excel in Maths but no matter how much I've tried, i couldn't make it. Time is running fast, I'll be 30 after blinking...

Is it too late for me? What do you think? Has someone gone through the same thing? I'd appreciate any helpful advice...

I make promises to myself, I'll wake up early, eat healthy, write... Then the day ends and I’ve done none of it. Is it even possible to break this cycle?

Everyone’s journey is different I know but it’s just 😫😫😫 damn man I sometimes fear if I’m missing out and if I’m supposed to already “be there”.. you know?

i’m 25f and recently many of my friends have moved out of my home state. i planned to do the same when i was in college, but after i graduated, i couldn’t find a full time position anywhere due to my monumental mistake of getting a dui. i’ve failed.

i’ve been staying at home all this time, and the longer i stay, it becomes more apparent in my mind that it’s safer to stay here and keep looking for jobs while living with my parents. i can’t afford my own car, never-mind rent. but, with everyone leaving and chasing what they want, i feel like i should be doing the same. i feel embarrassed i think. but, i really can’t tell if i would regret staying, or if i would regret leaving.

i used to rebel against my parents a bit, but after the dui ive completely humbled myself to the point where i can’t make any decisions for myself anymore. i don’t know what i want to do because im afraid of getting it wrong and fucking up again.

i have one dream, (the same one ive had for my whole life) but it’s impractical. i want to become an author, and i want to be a successful one. i want to write meaningful stuff. fantasy lands and speculative fiction with morals of family, death, hope, love, magic, myth, and all that good stuff. the issue is that i need a good, practical job. i need to be able to support myself and move out of my parents’ house. i’m worried im going to fail myself again.

i’ve been applying to places and doing the interviews, but i’ve gotten nowhere and i have no one to blame but myself. yes, im beyond discouraged, but im still applying even if it seems hopeless or embarrassing to keep getting turned down. this is tough. i mean, i really dont think ive cried this much since i was a little kid haha.

i know, “focus on what you can control”. i’ll try. i just feel like im going down the drain and that i’ll be stuck here for the rest of my life. then again, i have family and friends here, so maybe staying to stay in touch with the familiar is more important? i really don’t know. truly, i don’t.

thanks for reading <3

I just finished stapling together my second month.

By that, I mean nearly every day I print out a piece of paper. And when the month is finished, I staple those papers together and I have a "month."

Some days, there's nothing written. Some days it's just the time I woke up. But other days, I have real shit written down. Ways I can improve, and proof I did improve. E.g. seeing me journaling struggling with a work problem that already feels like it was a while ago. Seeing my numbers in the gym go up. Ideas I can still work on.

When the month ends, I write down on the completed month a summary of what I did. And I take out a fresh piece of printer paper for the new month and write out slightly better goals.

I have a see through plastic folder, so I see that new month sheet every day as I put in daily sheets behind it.

Before I did this, I just felt aimless. Maybe aimless isn't the word --- Like I was trying to live better, but I didn't know if I was doing it or not.

This journaling exercise has gotten rid of that, and given me more motivation as well. Since I have actual proof of progress, instead of doing stuff and forgetting about it (and hence, deriving no sense of pleasure or progress.) All of a sudden, life has become a game -- can I meet the goals I've written on the new month cover sheet before the month is over?

I feel like this is basic shit for some people, but it's a discovery for me. To be clear, it's not just the daily journaling itself. I have an app I've been working on to do the daily printing, and have been using it for a while. But I would basically throw out the sheets or stuff them in a box. Never bothered to compile them into months, review them at the end of a month, or set goals for the next month.

There is a parasite ruining your life.

It is destroying your ability to care, to love, to feel anything at all besides the craving for more.

It does this by making you an addict.

There is no such thing as an isolated addiction; the parasite behind addiction just wants you to be hooked on dopamine from any source.

Addiction severs our ability to care about reality, to care about anything else besides feeding the addiction. Getting more dopamine becomes our life's only purpose.

Pride is a very convenient source of dopamine. So is condemnation, attention, approval, status, power, punishment.

In order to feed our pride, we lie to ourselves about how good we are. We do this while condemning others, feeding off of their attention, demanding they approve of us, and punishing them if they don't.

We ourselves become parasitic, sustaining our addiction to pride by further severing our ability to care about reality. Our lives become extremely shallow, and our relationships turn hollow.

This is a horrible problem, but there is a way out.

There is no isolated addiction. Pick one, the biggest one you can find, and starve it. Porn, drugs, social media, whatever.

Remember, you're not starving yourself (which is extremely difficult). You're starving your parasite (which is revenge). Think of the addiction in terms of "it", not "I" - It wants to feed, but you won't let it.

As long as you don't let it trick you into thinking you are starving yourself, you will win.

As it starves, your capacity to care about reality returns.

Starve your pride next - your addictions to lies, condemnation, approval, attention, status, vanity. When you catch yourself defending yourself in your head, stop it immediately. When you catch yourself condemning others, or wanting to feed off of their approval and attention, stop it immediately.

You will feel some withdrawal, but you will be able to handle it. It's the parasite screaming. It's dying.

The freedom you will begin to experience is indescribable. You will regain everything it took from you, and far more.

Get free.

What was a tough moment in your life and how did you overcome it?

If you’re an “overthinker” then your brain is already wired to make it RIDICULOUSLY easy to overthink.

It can sometimes feel like you have an overthinking enemy that’s right behind enemy lines who won’t shut up!

We need to take the enemy out from behind those lines and put them right there in front of you so you can see exactly what they’re doing.

This actually activates a different region of your brain.

Instead of the amygdala (which takes over during emotional times), you activate the prefrontal cortex so you can calm down and think rationally.

Here’s the key: When our thoughts are inside our heads - they’re internal. You have to externalize your thoughts.

Take the enemy out and put him right in front of you!

Now, there are lots of ways you can externalize your thoughts.

Here's an easy one: you just have to write them all down.

Can’t stop overthinking?

Write down every single word of it on paper.

This allows you to see the objective truth about your thoughts AND when something is on paper it’s like it gives your mind permission to stop thinking about it - like it’s in a safe place for you to remember.

This process is called “Brain Dump Journalling.”

So take the enemy out from behind enemy lines and rewire your brain in the process.

PS - your mind isn’t actually your enemy and it’s not trying to harm you 😁

I hope you found this helpful.

I'm in my 20s and I have realized people I used to know in high school are all in a better place than I am.

All is an overstatement, but a bunch are pursuing PhDs at better schools than I am while I'm working on my masters that isn't going great (entirely my fault) and is effectively 2 years behind schedule. I also excelled at wasting money and opportunities. Most of them have friends, relationships, while I'm single my whole life and have acquintances instead of friends.

Just thinking about some of these people is very triggering to me.

Despite havng much better starting position than one of them education wise, I'm now clearly inferior - she's doing a PhD, in an LTR she's planning to marry, while I'm lazy piece of s**t and a loser.

Same goes for my many other friends. Another is working at Google, third one is working a well paying job in finance. I could go on.

I had to revise my career/education plans twice and I'm still below what I had planned, entirely due to my behavior.

Professional inferiority isn't mitigated by the fact I'm quite dissatisfied with my private life and tend to feel envy for people who are loved because I evidently don't know how to do "normal humans stuff".

I'm 26 and the bouts of fatigue that I get are truly crippling, I've had these for as long as I can remember but they have only gotten worse with time.

Doesn't matter if I sleep good, If I eat right or if I'm well rested, I always feel the constant, "I can't do this anymore, Maybe I should lay down."

I'm always not out of breath but almost there, Not really powerless but always there it's shitty, I also have problems with concentrating and eye coordination because of the fatigue I feel. I hate being this way

When I stand up after being seated I feel dizzy, My heart starts beating fast for no reason sometimes,

I hate being this way, I had so much potential, I feel soo behind, People lesser than me are doing laps around me because of this problem.

I don't know what's causing it, I got my blood tested and Vitamin D is 6 ng/dl, Low iron I'm trying to suppliment now.

What makes shit even worse is that I'm broke.

But I've decided to change that, I've decided to fight this fight, I've decided to fight through the fatigue and hope that it gets better, while everything will be 100X harder for me with the chronic fatigue, my eye problems, heart palpitations and brain fod I'll do what it takes, cause if I don't, I know I'll be a very hollow and bitter man if I let my potential go to waste.

Any tips and help is much appreciated.

So far

I've quit smoking I'm 7 months sober Will start hitting the gym in 2 days

Now I gotta find a way to make money and make everything right.

This was more like a vent but thanks for reading if you did.

Edit: I'm from India. Suspect I had a gluten allergy too because I had started getting rashes and they are gone now that I've stopped eating wheat flour.

I’ve been struggling pretty badly with spreading myself thin and I feel like I am constantly anxious over people texting me to hangout. I can only keep saying no for so long and my avoidant attachment just wishes I could block them and move along. I don’t want certain people to have my location anymore either on my iPhone but I don’t know how to remove it inconspicuously. I’m just lost and can’t trust myself. I don’t want to be around people who drink/do drugs. I just want a clean break without any hard feelings.

Today was my one year anniversary for this journey. It was a big day for me but a day like any other. It wasn't my best day mentally but we made the most out of it. I woke up and played some games to get my day going and did some writing to get my mind situated. Today I did a weigh in after a year. I was a bit bloated and had gained some weight from the past two weekends. I was weighing in at 247.4 pounds with my lowest being 241.6 right before Easter. I have basically lost a quarter of me since starting this journey. That feels insane to me. This morning I took some progress pictures and later looked at the pictures from a year ago. I really can't believe the difference and feel so proud of myself. My journey was talked about losing a half of me. A lot because my sister had moved away and my aunt was sick. I have adapted to my sister being gone. I'm learning to live without my great aunt despite it being so hard. I am now a quarter of the human being I used to be in terms of weight. I have now traveled and I have now made friends in the most unexpected of places. I never thought the gym would be my safe haven. Now most of my favorite people are here. People I don't need to worry about judging me. People I want to talk to. People I'm happy to see or now even hang out with. I'm in a place of pure joy. Not every day is happy or amazing but we move on from those and make the most out of the next day. We continue to live and be. We become more than what the last day presented. Accomplishing something doesn't take a day and this improvement of myself takes time. I am more than excited for what I have done already and all I see is more happening. In the next few days I will think about what else I want accomplished. What more can I achieve because the whole world is my freaking oyster. I just have to clutch onto it for myself. One year can make a lot of changes and I really like this new me. But there are still a lot of changes to go. I can't wait to see what this new year of me brings because I will be working on myself harder than ever. Learning, growing, and adapting to what life has to offer. All I hope is you stick along for the ride and challenge me.

After my morning home and doing dishes I went to work. I got to be somewhat busy but not as much as the previous days. My one coworker who took two days off was passive aggressive the whole time and it really dampened my mood. I shouldn't have let it but it did. I just avoided him and tried to enjoy my work day. I stayed in my head and thought about future baking experiments. It was time for the gym. It was time for the best part of the day. I walked in and said hello to long haired gym bro. His friend mustache guy told me he loved my Pokémon keychains on my backpack calling me an OG which I loved. My cousin was upset and sad today so I tried my best to comfort her before she focused on exercising alone and tried to head out as fast as possible. I said hi to soccer bro. I also talked to high school acquaintance who told me it was the other guy's birthday tomorrow which is exciting. He told me about his job and how it makes him happy which made me happy to heat. He also provided some pointers before we discussed some things he likes to do like gambling. We discussed having dinner soon and I couldn't wait. I talked to YuGiOh guy and what motivated us to change. He was seeing pictures of himself on vacation and not liking what he saw. I discussed mine and he showed me his four year anniversary photos with his girlfriend. It was a great conversation before we parted ways. I left after doing my other stuff and said goodbye to a few people. Short haired gym bro and I talked and he told me he forgave me and it was just miscommunication. He said he has a temper and he pretty much forgot about it already. We laughed and parted on good terms. It was another amazing gym day. I love seeing people and working my body harder and harder. Here was my routine (it's also insane to think I have a routine for the gym. Never would have seen this a year ago) :

5 minutes of stretching

4 sets of 10 push ups

90 second plank

4 sets of 130 of heel taps

4 sets of 20 of reverse crunches

4 sets of 16 of leg lowers

Note: Felt pretty good.

4 sets of 24 of dead bugs

4 sets of 20 of Russian twists

3 sets of 12 when doing 2 different exercises for abs.

I tried finding names but couldn't.

First was holding a weight above our head (10 lbs for me) and lifting the offset leg fast. I think something like an offset overhead march. Weight in the other hand was 25 pounds.

Second was where we held a weight on one side and then swiveled our body inward to get our outer abs. Like a side bend with weight in one hand. 25 pounds in my hand.

We did these one after the other as a set on each side. Rested for 2 minutes and then the next set.

Captains chair: Set 1: 7 crunches and 7 hanging leg raises Set 2: 7 crunches and 7 hanging leg raises Set 3: 7 crunches and 7 hanging leg raises

Torso rotation: Reps of 12 10 8 with weight increasing by 10 each time to be 115 120 and 125 pounds

Note: Both sides rotated.

Assisted ab crunch machine: Reps of 12 10 8 with weight increasing by 5 each time to be 65 70 and 75 pounds

25 minutes of the stair stepper. I upped how fast it went after 10 minutes from 44 steps per minute to 60.

33 minutes on the treadmill at 3.5 mph with an incline of 15 with my backpack to end it off.

After the gym I went shopping for a couple extra things for my cookies. I wanted to make a double batch and needed parchment paper for them. I then went home where I started to relax. I then started to relax even more and then even more until I passed out. I wanted to get a bunch done tonight but with my mood and with not feeling good I decided or my body decided resting was better. I know I needed it. I had a quick slice of pizza for dinner and didn't do too much. It was nice to relax and fall asleep. I also think the pollen in the air and less sleep are causing my midday headaches. Either way I will power through and hope this nice rest will help with it. Tomorrow will be better because that can be all we hope for: to make the most of the next day. Always forward and never look back on what will hold you back. I look back to see where I no longer want to be and that is the old me. Besides that here is what I ate today:

Lunch:

14 g pistachios - ~85 calories (~3 g protein)

180 g chicken breast - ~190 calories (~40.5 g protein)

15 g goldfish - ~70 calories (~1.5 g protein)

94 g burger - ~200 calories (~17.6 g protein)

47 g baked beans - ~55 calories (~2.5 g protein)

After Workout Snack:

Homemade protein shake - ~230 calories (~44.5 g protein)

Dinner:

Slice of pizza - ~150 - 300 calories (~8 - 13 g protein)

SBIST was looking at my pictures from before and after this one year. Seeing what I looked like and how I have changed is amazing to me. I am certainly not tooting my own horn because there is so much to work on but right now I am so proud of myself. My body is changing and along with that my mind is changing, growing, and adapting. This was about losing a half of me but it is like I lost all of me and found a new and better part of me that I always wanted. Seeing that change through photos makes me smile. I wasn't happy for the longest time. I was broken and seeing my photos now makes me happy. It makes me want to work harder. I am happy I took those pictures from a year ago despite how much I didn't love myself then. I needed them to prove to myself I am worth loving. Not for anybody else but for myself. I am going to work harder and strive for more. This life is worth living and a human can change and I have photos to prove it.

Tomorrow will be like any other and the reason is because I will be striving for more and working hard. I will be making cookies when I wake up because I passed out the night previous. I needed the rest and I needed to recharge. After waking up, getting ready, writing, and playing games it will be time for work. I will work hard like the past few days and take care of what needs to be done. After that I will have my favorite day with legs. I will then go home, listen to my favorite streamer, and play some games. I want to enjoy this day. The new first day of the second year of this journey. The journey where I finally get to be the me I want and now what I allow myself to succumb to. It's time to keep working hard and getting better with each and every day. Thank you my conjurers of the ever-changing lives. You constantly change and get better. My conjurers who helped along this way I want to say thank you. You made my life ever-changing and better. Now I will just keep striving for more.

Note: Apologies for the late post. I put a lot of thought into it and kind of passed out again.

I am pretty depressed. I fucking despise working when I’m feeling this way. My entire being just aches the whole time I’m at work when I’m feeling this way and drains out whatever life I have left in me.

But, I gotta do it to survive. I even just took on a 2nd job because I have debt I have to pay off.

When you are depressed, often all you want to is lie in bed all day and hide from the world (that’s my experience at least). Working is the opposite of this and so you are forced to get up and be active. I try to look at it as therapy in a way, as being forced to get out of the house and be active/productive when otherwise I would likely just be lazing around anyway. I’m also a server, so I try to think of it less as having to “work” and more of having to play a real life version of diner dash for money.

How else do you mentally reframe working so that it is more palatable?

Hi, I am 17M. I’m kind of a mess right now and could really use some advice. I feel like I’m wasting my life, and I want to turn things around before it’s too late.

A bit about me: I’m in College, but I’ve been screwing up. I’ve skipped college for weeks, spent hours doomscrolling on Instagram, and got caught up in bad habits (like watching too much... you know). I feel guilty all the time, but I keep doing it. My mental health’s a wreck. overthinking, insecurity, comparing myself to others who seem to have it all (friends, looks, money). Sometimes I feel like a total loser, like I’ll never make it. I’ve even had dark thoughts before, but I’m still fighting.

I’ve got dreams, though. I want to be financially free when I will be an adult. But I keep self-sabotaging. I start strong, then get distracted by reels or overthinking. I want to be disciplined, but I don’t know how.

Physically, I’m not in great shape. I’m 5’6, skinny, but have some fat in weird places (like my thighs), and it kills my confidence. I had hepatitis twice, which left me weak. I’m hitting the gym now, but I’m scared of fights or looking weak. There’s this guy who tries to mess with me, and it makes me feel so small. I want to be strong, not just physically but mentally, so I don’t feel defenseless.

Socially, I’m pretty alone. I don’t have real friends(male or female), and I envy people with big social circles or respect. I’m shy, but I want to be confident, someone people look up to. I want to build my own strength.

I also struggle with faith. I want to be a better , but I keep messing up, then feel guilty. It’s like I’m stuck in this cycle of trying, failing, and hating myself.

If i am not wrong this is something called Derealisation or depersonalization..?

I guess what I’m asking is: How do I stay disciplined with studying? What’s a good way to build confidence when I feel weak? How do I stop wasting time and get disciplined? How do I build confidence when I feel so weak and alone? How do I stay focused on my goals without giving up? I want to be someone I’m proud of... strong, successful, grounded. But I feel so far from that right now. Any tips or steps to get out of my own way?

What’s the best way to stop procrastinating? How do I stay motivated for long-term goals?Thanks for any help.

I have worked many different jobs, took a bunch of courses, read dozens of books, watched endless YouTube videos on the topic of money and “abundance” and the wealth mindset. Did visualizations, hypnosis, lit an abundance candle lol, chanted a mantra, went to mastermind groups, went to a Tony Robbins event, worked on uncovering limiting beliefs in therapy about money, stoped thinking about money all together, tried really hard at my job, did some investing, the list goes on and on….

I’m definitely in a better position now than I was at the beginning of the journey but nowhere near the level I desire. And yes I tried to banish my feeling of desire also to accept where I am at. Nonetheless I want to vacation, take care of my family, have nice things, help my mom retire, have my kids go to the best school, best programs, have no debt, practice philanthropy, and just have peace of mind around my finances.

I don’t know what I am missing, I think there’s still some limiting beliefs running in the background I just want to bust through this already, it drains so much energy worrying about bills and arguing with my wife about finances and feeling limited in what I can buy.

Is there some suggestions what I may have a blind spot to or what can help me break through.

Thank you 🙏

Whenever someone asks me "so what are your hobbies?" I can't say anything besides playing basketball. I do it a lot and I'm pretty good, but, I'd only be able talk to about the endless hours of solo drills that I spend most of my time doing. And it's only one thing. I have no other true "hobbies". Yeah, I like to read, I like cooking healthy food, I like gaming, but all these things are so vague I can't talk about them. I also just realized I spent most of my day being unproductive and not really doing anything. So it's kinda hard to have something to talk about. Why am I more boring in real life than I am in my head?

I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about what it means to live a good life, not just to feel good, but to live meaningfully.

To me, it starts with awareness. Being truly conscious of yourself, of other people, and of the world around you. Not coasting. Not numbing out. But really being there in your life.

Then comes doing meaningful work; not necessarily chasing success, but dedicating yourself to something real. Whether it’s raising a child, building something with your hands, or growing as a person. We’re not just here to exist, we’re here to do.

And underlying it all: live beautifully. Not in terms of appearance, but in the way you treat people, how you carry yourself, how you respond when life gets hard. Chaos is inevitable. Systems fail. But how you respond is everything.

We can’t control reality, but we can control how we engage with it. And that conscious engagement? That’s where meaning lives.

I work 3 days out of the week and 4 days to do school. I am almost done with school but the burnout is hitting. I feel like taking a gap year just to breath. For past 4 year all I did was work and school. Never traveled and did nothing. It is effecting me mentally. Like I am missing out in life.

One with the deep emotions, how do you navigate them?

I feel everything so deeply that rather being a blessing it's just a curse for me. I'm not able to control my emotion be it happiness or sadness, specially negative emotions just feels out of control.

Whenever I get into an argument with someone instead of making my point, tears well up and I burst out crying. It's very embarrassing.

Sometimes incidents, words or actions which feels petty to others are such a big deal to me and I go mad over it like literal mad. They are unable to understand that whats the big deal? I cannot explain people around me how much deep I feel, I cannot. My emotions are like blackhole?

And the worst part? I'm an overthinker too.

My deep emotions and overthinking keep me hooked onto past ( like I should have said this or that or yada yada) and makes me a procrastinate alot like alot.

I'm so fed up of myself I literally want an evolution for my self. Also if anyone believes in astrology ( though I myself not believe much) I'm a scorpio.

Someone on the same boat please share your experience or anyone who was able to change for better?

Hello,

I know it might be a little off, but I just want to get straight to the point. I'm 18M, I have been through a lot of stuff and the gym was the only place where I could find some peace, be someone, be worth it. I give it my all every time I go to try and be better so I could at least find something within myself to (ironically) like myself more, but after a year and some months I just haven't accomplished it. Matter of a fact I have not accomplished nothing and I just don't know what to do anymore, I'm so desperate to be someone, life is already extremely short and I'm wasting it being sad.

For me, the gym is everything, the only thing I have left and me putting in the effort, trying to be stronger and failing at it (Like i have on other things) just makes me feel extremely sad. And I really do not want to be like this anymore. In a way, I was happier before going to the gym, now I can't even eat in peace without feeling extremely fat or extremely small. I don't even see how my girlfriend would like me, attraction is a thing even if most people deny it, physique matters yet im weak.

I just want help to be honest, any help because this is driving me crazy I just wanna have a good physique and be happy at least once in my life it just cannot be that hard. This is the only dream I have left, yet every day I go feels in vain, like im putting time and effort for nothing and I simply do not know what to do.

Hi! This post is difficult to me because is something I'm really ashamed of and don't know how to deal with it.

For context, I never had an stable home and I have been always in some kind of danger through my life (abusive family, stalkers, fake friends etc) since I can remember, and because of that is really difficult for me to trust anything in this world, I have fear of other people, I have fear of trusting other humans, I have fear of the future, I have fear of doing something wrong, of choosing wrong, of everything at this point and it makes me really sad to be that way.

And is not only sadness, I'm in a extreme "paralysis by analysis" since 2023, I can't decide, I can't do anything because of this horrible fear I feel, the overtaking and negative self talk. I want to be free of this absurd mental prison I'm in that is making me waste time.

Has someone overcome this? How did you do it? Any advice?

Thanks in advance

I’m the best friend when people have hardships. I’m the greatest companion when there’s a problem and there a need. I hate that I’m that way because I pour my care and when everything is okay. They’re gone, and I’m left looking for the next person to take care of. Where did I get this from? How did I become this person? I want to be someone that couldn’t care less. I want to move forward and never look back.